Long Time No See...Sorry...

Assalamualaikum and good morning.

It has been awhile...I stopped blogging since August 2011 if I'm not mistaken, due to my laziness and I am too busy handling my procrastination. So, I was hoping that with a lil bit of change in my blog will increase my passion in writing. But, it turned to be that it's hard to change the background, and I have to choose one of the backgrounds that the Blogger has provided. It is much easier that way rather than searching for pictures in Google Images, download it to my laptop and then upload it to my blog, because I am a little bit choosy and they're limiting the size of the picture. The maximum size would be 300kb. -.-"

Hurm...as you guys can see, I changed the font so that you guys can easily read it. I have lots of comments especially from my friends, saying that it is quite hard to read with the previous font. I made up my mind and I change it, although I have to make few adjustments to some of my guitar-learning posts.

I also need to put labels in this blog so that people can easily search for the related articles, but I am daft and apparently I still don't figure how to make labels. *sigh*

Well that's now from me, and Insya-Allah I will be actively post new things in here. Hope it will new and interesting posts that may give us some benefits. I will try my best not to post lots of stupid and rubbish things in my blog anymore.

Thanks to you guys who keep on reading this inactive blog. See ya later~
^_^

I found this picture when I was busy searching for the background picture. Lol. Hopefully I can have the spirit to continue my life just like him. :)

It's almost Raya. Isn't it?

Assalamualaikum and good morning

It's already 28th of Ramadan and after this we as Muslims gonna celebrate Eid or in Malay, Hari Raya.
And seriously I think I'm not gonna celebrate it too much this year. Maybe I think I don't deserve to celebrate the month of celebrations, after a month fasting from dawn to the dusk, everyday. But with exception for those who cannot fast in Ramadan for various reasons.

For kids, celebrating Raya would be meaningful IF they are fasting for the whole month, eventhough they didn't reach puberty yet.
I looked upon myself and asked myself.
I'm already 19 going 20, but then I only manage to fast, but not really doing things that may help me in gaining rewards or deeds from Allah S.W.T. such as Taraweeh prayer, recite the holy Quran, etc.
These things really make me awful as I can't keep on the momentum, and discipline myself in doing all those.
It should be like this...

Raya (kids) : 30 days of fasting
Raya (youth and adults) : 30 days of fasting + plus other things that lead to deeds/rewards

That's why I'm not enjoying Raya this time. I feel ashamed of myself. A LOT.

One more thing, I'm going to further my studies in UiTM. Yes, again. Last time I studied foundation in TESL for two semesters, and I'm on my way for degree in TESL.

Same course,
Same college (insya-Allah, I really hope I can stay in Meranti College until the end of degree),
Same faculty
Same university

For 5 years...=l
A year of foundation and 4 years of degree.

Here am I, 'busy' going online, playing video games, and handling these documents. *sigh*

Not to forget, I must get 3.5  and above because I already promised to her.
But actually I must get 3.75 above to enable me to change the PTPTN loan into scholarship and get the opportunity to study overseas. That's my dream, and if there's God will, I will bring her along with me.

And yeah, it's more than a month we've been together. I really hope we can make it until the end of our life.
27th of July is the date. I love you. Sorry for not being there for you. I'll change. I promise.

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri for you guys. Forgive me for all the wrongdoings okay?
=)

P.S : I think I already 'retired' drom playing firecrackers, and that's why I can't stand hearing those firecrackers explodes. xD

Escaped From a Crocodile's Bite, But Accidentally Entered Tiger's Mouth

Assalamualaikum and good evening

First of all, I must keep reminding myself, I must accept the written fate of my life.

“Allah does not burden a soul with more than it can bear.”(Quran 2: 286)


"Do men think that they will be left alone on saying 'We believe', and that they will not be tested? We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true 
from those who are false."(Quran 29:2-3)


Okay, I think with these verses, words of Allah, taken from the holy al-Quran will help me to calm down and relax.

I already have a new job. Perda, Pulau Pinang is the place where me and my friend, Badri Shaharudin went for an interview with a company. We found the job in a local newspaper and quickly called the person in the advertisement. When we arrived, we were interviewed by the clerk, a young beautiful woman who soothed our heart at that moment. We choose the position that we want, 'CUSTOMER SERVICE' as we want to evade any works that require us to get sales. Although the salary is rm500 per month, we can get extra income for every water filter that we service. Yes, it is a water treatment/filter company. Plus, the work is only within office hours, that is, 9 a.m. to 5 p.m.

We went for training for few days, knowing the product itself and the history of the company. We came early to the office and we cannot stop ourselves from becoming too excited to start the job. On 6th of June we came to the office like usual but there was no one there. Then we got a call from our boss. We were asked to go for an outstation for a week, only. Allowance will be provided, she said. So, we head back to Kulim, to pack our belongings, and wait for them to fetch us. We waited at home from the afternoon until night for them. At 10 p.m., they came. On our journey to Slim River we had a chat, all five of us. Badri, another boy who is the same age with us, a male supervisor, and his wife. Surprisingly, our job is not 'customer service' but DIRECT SELLING AGENT instead.

So here we are, trapped with problems...in Tanjung Malim, not Slim River. WITH NO ALLOWANCE !!!
Only advance money are available. With the basic of RM500...If I keep asking for advance, how much my salary will be later on?I have to pay for hotel about RM11 per day, and this outstation last for around 11 days, which means RM110, and I eat average of RM10 per day. The best part is, in my account there's RM3 left, as I already withdraw RM90 from it.I only got one sale for now, selling one unit of water filter and I get RM20 only
RM20 !!!
this coming Friday, 24th of June 2011 I'll go back to Kulim and on 20th of June I'll have to go for an outstation again until 30th of June, where advance money is on the line.


Let me show some calculation:

RM500 (basic) + RM20 (commission) = RM520
Hotel for this out station (10 days) = RM110
Advance (not sure) = RM50
Next outsation = RM110 + RM 110 (hotel and food for 10 days)

RM520 - RM110 - RM50 - RM220 = RM140

SERIOUSLY I NEED MORE SALES....if I quit I won't get any money...
I DON'T LIKE this selling thingy AT ALL
I need to pay RM600 for my PS3 and RM600 for my mom
And I don't know if I have the money
My wifi bill also need to be payed this month

I HAVE BEEN CHEATED BY MY BOSS...AND THE WORKERS THERE...I DID ASKED MY BOSS ABOUT THIS JOB, AND SHE SAID THERE WILL BE NO SALES, JUST SERVICE THE  CUSTOMERS' WATER FILTER AND WILL BE GIVEN ALLOWANCE...NOT TO FORGET THE WORKERS THERE, WHO COVERED THE BOSS' EVIL ACT

I really wish this nightmare will end soon...I can't wait to go to July, where I'll quit this freaking job.
Wonder if I can go to the Labour Department Peninsular Malaysia to complaint about my case...

I don't like to knock people's door to promote this water filter although this product has the quality to win my heart...I had to bring the filter all along the apartment, quarters, low cost house, under the raging sun blaze. THIS SUCKS A LOT !!!

You're the best boss I ever known !!! Okay, I'm lying...

I want to cry but it's too late to do that..I have to face it anyway..T_T
I miss my parents, family, friends
home, guitar, my pillow, motorcycle

I MISS KULIM

I'm Fired !!!

Assalamulaikum and good morning

It has been a while, yet again. This time I managed to find some time to write for a new entry.
Because....
I WAS FIRED
Yeah, indeed.

Oh yeah...I can feel the laser beam right through my heart !

I was working like hell during last month. I didn't have enough time for blogging and as the result, I can feel the weights on my fingers when typing this entry. =.=

I admit that I came late to work, I ditched some hours of work, but then if I got caught, that's just me with the supervisor. On last Friday, 20th of May, I received an Short Message Service (SMS) from my supervisor that it is my last day already. Simply because they said that my time didn't match with theirs. I just asked my supervisor and boss to get back earlier from 21st-23rd of May because I want to help my father in the stall, which sells Bakso. The roadshow for that week requires me to work from 11 a.m. until 10 p.m. and I ask them if I ever get the chance to finish my work at 6 p.m. They said that they will discuss about it later on. Surprisingly, the result is, when I get back from work, I received the SMS. =.=

At first, I can't accept the fact that I've been fired. Well, I got to pay my mom RM600 because I borrowed her money and I have to pay RM1200 for the PS3 because I already deposited RM300 for it...

GREAT !!!
The salary that I will received is just around RM700 I think and where can I find the remaining money for my mom and PS3?

Now I already accept that I'm jobless and I need to find a new job. I must believe in faith and Allah S.W.T will always beside me to help me out in life, although truth hurts a lot. Maybe He destroys my plan and maybe He wants to replace it with a better one. Who knows right?

The things that I want to focus right now are:
1. The Malaysian Education Inventory Selection (MEdSI) interview on this coming 29th of May (This is regarding my future because I want to be a teacher)

2. How to pay RM1200 to the game shop (Maybe I ask my brother for some money)

3. To settle down RM600 for my mother (I don't want her to be in a deep problem regarding money)

May Allah S.W.T helps me dealing with these problems, and at the same time I must help myself out of these problems.

P.S : No more purple shirt, 6 days a week. Goodbye fellow friends

Bees Are Always Busy, So Do I

 Assalamualaikum and good morning

I feel my life as a robot right now...haha...Oh ya, I forgot, first of all thanks for those are still open my blog just to read stupid stuffs that I put in here. And sorry that I am too busy working right now...I have to work from morning until evening as a sales promoter and at the evening-night I helped my father out at the Bakso stall. I make drinks for the customer. Insya-Allah I'll try my best to put some pictures in this blog later on.

 A cute bee that I think doesn't busy at all...xD

Many people asked me why I am so serious when it comes to money? >.< ....it is simple, I want to build my own empire of business and have lots of money in the bank for my family later on. It is for the sake of my parents, wife (in future) and kids (also in the future)...Plus, my friends said that we can later on start to finance easily after we get a job, with the degree in our hands.

For me, if we had the chance to save some money before we finished our degree would it be nice? You can have lots of money after graduating while others are about to start financing at that time. My target, I will have RM30k++ if I can save around RM5k for each two semesters in my degree. I believe It can be achieve if I put more discipline in handling my money. And that's why I'm thinking about quitting smoke... I want to save more money. I just don't care about my own health actually. I need cigarette whenever I feel tensed, hanging out with friends, after eating, bored, and many more. But it sure costs me and I can't bare it anymore.

For these 4-5 months there are few targets that I want to achieve, that's why I'm busy working. In next few 4 months, insya-Allah I will get RM4k that I need. RM2k is for my savings, that would be a total of RM11k if I count it all, and another RM2k to buy the lovely Sony PlayStation 3. =D

I'm sure spending my money on consoles like this is far more better than buying new cell phones. Cell phones evolves fast. If you buy a new cell phone today, a month later you won't surprise if there's a new model, which has a stylish design, cheaper, the specifications are better than yours, and theworst part is, when you want to sell the existing cell phone, the price dropped tremendously. That's why I choose to buy PlayStation 3 than a new cell phone.

Just take a look at Allah's beautiful creation...I really wish I can get a huge 'empire' like this one day

For the money that I've been saving since last year, if it reaches RM20k, the dividend that I can get if I put into the bank, I will get around RM2k, well that's enough for an engagement. >.<. I think about getting engage in the age of 23 or 24. That should be just fine. I don't know why, but I keep on thinking about the future that awaits.

Owh my, I talk too much about money...-.-

Yeah and one more thing, when thinking about the girl that I like since I was in high school, makes me more energetic to work harder in order to make more money. Although I had two accidents while I was riding my motorcycle to work due to the slippery road, I stood up and ignored all the pain that I had to suffer. It is all because of her. I won't mind to save my money if it's not for her.

And for all more hardship that I have to face now, I know that God will repay it with happiness someday.
One of His name is Al-Muqsit, means The Just...I really believe He would give me the happiness that I need in the future...=')

Think Positive !!!

Assalamualaikum and good evening~

The final examination for my course, Foundation in TESL, University Technology MARA (UiTM) was already started. The first paper was yesterday. To my surprise, I felt happy yesterday and start to think positive in life. I try to smile all day long as my heart longs to live the day, happily.

Luckily I didn't catch a fever yesterday...haha

Thanks to the Japanese drama, Great Teacher Onizuka (GTO). Actually I watched the anime when I was about 15, and because of the cool personality of Onizuka, I dreamed to be a teacher one day. As I was in school, for about 10 years, 1999-2004 for primary school and 2005-2009 for secondary school, I realized that some of the teachers don't really understand the students. I still remembered what my mathematic teacher had said, he's a male; "treat me as a friend but respect me as a teacher". I promised to myself if I got the chance to be a teacher, I will understand the students better and be friends with them. Because I believe, the notorious students have their own problems and reason why they do such things. Because I used to be a naughty student too. xD

This is Eikichi Onizuka starred by Sorimachi Takashi 

This is the real Eikichi Onizuka in manga and anime

(I don't think it's a problem if a smoker becomes a teacher...xP)

I also addicted to the new song of my favorite band, which is The Strokes, from their 4th new album, Angles: Under Cover Of Darkness. As I listen to the song for many times, the more addicted I am to their music. Of course, their music arrangement is superb and I put them as my favorite band of all time. Their album will be released in 22nd of March. And my Foundation of TESL will be on 19th of March. I already bought a bundle blazer which costs me RM20 (not including repairing the buttons, RM3), The Strokes t-shirt RM33, Converse old school canvas shoes RM135, and alter my black jeans. And I'm ready to look like The Strokes !!! My idol in music !!!

Well, gotta be prepared for the next 5 papers, goodbye folks~

=D

Thanks For Your Arrogant...=)

Assalamualaikum and good night

I'm hating the fact that I'm losing my friends at the end of my foundation. I always believe that once you are my friend, regardless how bad you are, or how kind you are. No matter how they treat me (well there are some of my friends did treat me badly), I am still their friend.

Well, I know that our relationship doesn't work. But can't we just turn back to the times when we were just friends? I miss the old days, sitting in front of you and have a long chat. We used to go out together with the other friends. Can't you just forget about all in the past and move on with life? I just wanna be your friend.

Maybe it's all my fault to start feeling something which I considered as stupid towards you. But still it was all out of my control and you started to feel annoyed. But maybe it was also because sometimes I misinterpret with your  'signs'...I thought those were the 'signs' that you felt the same way too.

But instead when you know my real feeling towards you, you began to evade me as I am not your friend anymore. Come on, if at least you can't accept me at that particular time, we just can be friends but it is your arrogant that kills me deeply me inside.

Or you just hooked with new boy, or a boy who you knew before me. It's okay, I can accept it, but my mood is unpredictable. When the time I need you the most, to chat by only using IM, you started to ignore me and continue with your arrogant. I felt stranded alone here.

Now the same thing is repeating. Yet, the history is keep repeating itself, while I'm not aware of it. I just wanna be her friend but instead she did the same thing that you did to me. Yeah, I just knew that she's also still hooked up with her crush and let no openings for me to be her friend. Thank you.

Well, luckily I'm not a person who will crush other people's heart after my heart was badly crushed. I simply don't want other people to feel the same feeling like me, if I didn't treat them well. Although I knew some of them felt some funny feelings toward me, I still be there as a friend and I do like to be their friend..

I'll guess I hafta stay away from girls that may attract me so that I won't have any weird feelings.
Anyway, for the friends who are being ignorant to me....Thanks for the arrogant side of you.
You did teach me about the bitterness of life.
=)

P.S - To all my friends, sometimes I did feel tired of making 'the first move' in our friendship...I'll wait for you, and lets see whether you are gonna start it or not okayyy?

Life As a Loner

Assalamualaikum and hello there~

What would you feel if you are hoping a person to call or message you in the first place but he or she doesn't do that? Well in my case, of course it would be girls who wouldn't do so...

It's even sucks when you lower your ego, saying hi to her but she didn't reply to your message. It's like they they are playing with our heart and soul. And I do look stupid by their 'wrongdoing'...they are ignoring me and I felt stranded here.

I don't say that I'm in love with many girls in a period of time. But each and every time I'm trying to approach the girl that I like, the same thing happened. The process are kept on repeating on and on and I can't bare them anymore. I've tried to make my heart 'invincible' and it just won't work. And I kept asking myself, do I really need a girl in my life? The feeling of being unneeded really kills me.

I do envy those who had girlfriends and boyfriends as their life partners...But I do envy more for those who had never think so much about love in their life, and still, they are happy with their love. When talking about love, it is not about making sins here...But is all about heart. We as a human, do need a companion. Well, people would say that, "Hey, you do have friends and families to support you. Besides, you do have God, Allah S.W.T"

But...basically it's a human instinct.

Want to love someone and being loved by someone...We can say that we do have Allah S.W.T, family and friends, but the thing is, we do need a life partner. Even Prophet Muhammad S.A.W is His messanger, does married few women.

Love is a gift from Allah S.W.T to all human. That's why I can't deny when I felt in love. But it always seemed to be a one sided love...I've been rejected for many times before and sometimes I couldn't bare it anymore. I used to say that I won't need a girl anymore....But what happened is, I felt so numb and empty.

It is a life of a loner anyway...