So Long My Friend and Adversary~

Assalamualaikum and good morning

Finally I managed to end my second semester for Foundation in TESL, UiTM Shah Alam. The exams were quite hard, I can't deny, but somehow I was feeling happy during the exams. We had to face 6 papers during the finals. Starting from Listening and Speaking, Literature, Writing, Reading, Grammar, and Islamic Studies. Literature and Grammar sure kill us all. Hahaha.

After finished my last paper, Islamic Studies, I rushed myself to clear my stuffs in my hostel, go to my brother's house in Subang Jaya and took all my stuffs. That night, I went to UiTM Puncak Alam to stay for a night day, wth my friend, Ikhwanuddin (Wanud) because the next Saturday morning I got a test, Malaysian University Selection Inventory (MUnSYi) which is a personality test for those who wish to pursuit their degree in USM, Pulau Pinang. I just take it as my backup plan if I don't get TESL degree in the future. I really hope I can get TESL for my degree no matter it will be in UiTM or IIUM.

After the test, at the night of 19th March of 2011, we had a pre-graduation dinner for the Foundation in TESL students in UiTM Hotel. Well, we bid farewell to each other. Students and lecturers. Eventually there are students that will go to other courses or other universities. All four foundation programs in UiTM which are Science, Engineering, TESL, and Law doesn't require the students to stay in UiTM for degree. We have the freedom to go outside and explore new things. But thanks to UiTM for selecting us, to be in this program from May last year until March this year.

Here are some footages of me for the dinner:

 Me with Faiz 'Martin' and Asmira

 The hot red is Nisreen Afifah and at my left side is Ainaa who is one of the Committee Members

 Nadiah Lasuan who are the winner...the most valuable pad in the world~

(I should win the prize if I had sit on that chair...sigh~...just consider myself that I'm not lucky enough)

Acap cannot stop himself from holding the prize..haha...with Ameen with his 'sudden fierce' face

 The song which I played, is from The Strokes - Someday

Idzham and I like to tease Farahafizah along the dinner...xP

The mini Meranti hurdle that will always be remembered

Thanks for a such nice dinner guys, but frankly, I really prefer buffet rather than served foods. Not to forget, that the girls look gorgeous and the guys look hot that night. I really wish the night will never end...But who am I to stop the time as it still running out? I see and heard lots of cry. All I can do is trying to hug you guys (males) as I will never see you ever again next time and say hello or hi for those girls that I had never talk with. I will remember you guys forever, and sorry for all my wrongdoings and mistakes. The biggest sorry of all, would be sorry for myself, for my daftness, not to appreciate every second that I had gone through as the TESL student. I love you guys and I really wish we can meet again. 

Nisreen and Farahafizah, don't you guys ever cry in front of me again or I will also burst in tears..hua~...that's why you see I became hyper-active that night so that I can forget the sadness. I stomp onto lots of balloons just to wanna have fun, sorry for the loud 'bangs' that I have created. All I can say I love you guys !!! Special thanks to Thoriq, Izzul and Faiz Khuzairi who are willingly to play a song with me. You guys are the best~

For the lecturers, sorry if I don't fill the attendance slip and sleep in your class...Ha !!! I also played PSP in your class whenever I feel bored....sorry~I really feel proud that night with The Strokes look alike dress !!!

Thanks for you guys !!!

I'm proud to be a TESLian

I love all of you guys

So long my friend and adversary

I'll wait for you

(The Strokes - Under Cover Of Darkness)

Think Positive !!!

Assalamualaikum and good evening~

The final examination for my course, Foundation in TESL, University Technology MARA (UiTM) was already started. The first paper was yesterday. To my surprise, I felt happy yesterday and start to think positive in life. I try to smile all day long as my heart longs to live the day, happily.

Luckily I didn't catch a fever yesterday...haha

Thanks to the Japanese drama, Great Teacher Onizuka (GTO). Actually I watched the anime when I was about 15, and because of the cool personality of Onizuka, I dreamed to be a teacher one day. As I was in school, for about 10 years, 1999-2004 for primary school and 2005-2009 for secondary school, I realized that some of the teachers don't really understand the students. I still remembered what my mathematic teacher had said, he's a male; "treat me as a friend but respect me as a teacher". I promised to myself if I got the chance to be a teacher, I will understand the students better and be friends with them. Because I believe, the notorious students have their own problems and reason why they do such things. Because I used to be a naughty student too. xD

This is Eikichi Onizuka starred by Sorimachi Takashi 

This is the real Eikichi Onizuka in manga and anime

(I don't think it's a problem if a smoker becomes a teacher...xP)

I also addicted to the new song of my favorite band, which is The Strokes, from their 4th new album, Angles: Under Cover Of Darkness. As I listen to the song for many times, the more addicted I am to their music. Of course, their music arrangement is superb and I put them as my favorite band of all time. Their album will be released in 22nd of March. And my Foundation of TESL will be on 19th of March. I already bought a bundle blazer which costs me RM20 (not including repairing the buttons, RM3), The Strokes t-shirt RM33, Converse old school canvas shoes RM135, and alter my black jeans. And I'm ready to look like The Strokes !!! My idol in music !!!

Well, gotta be prepared for the next 5 papers, goodbye folks~

=D

Thanks For Your Arrogant...=)

Assalamualaikum and good night

I'm hating the fact that I'm losing my friends at the end of my foundation. I always believe that once you are my friend, regardless how bad you are, or how kind you are. No matter how they treat me (well there are some of my friends did treat me badly), I am still their friend.

Well, I know that our relationship doesn't work. But can't we just turn back to the times when we were just friends? I miss the old days, sitting in front of you and have a long chat. We used to go out together with the other friends. Can't you just forget about all in the past and move on with life? I just wanna be your friend.

Maybe it's all my fault to start feeling something which I considered as stupid towards you. But still it was all out of my control and you started to feel annoyed. But maybe it was also because sometimes I misinterpret with your  'signs'...I thought those were the 'signs' that you felt the same way too.

But instead when you know my real feeling towards you, you began to evade me as I am not your friend anymore. Come on, if at least you can't accept me at that particular time, we just can be friends but it is your arrogant that kills me deeply me inside.

Or you just hooked with new boy, or a boy who you knew before me. It's okay, I can accept it, but my mood is unpredictable. When the time I need you the most, to chat by only using IM, you started to ignore me and continue with your arrogant. I felt stranded alone here.

Now the same thing is repeating. Yet, the history is keep repeating itself, while I'm not aware of it. I just wanna be her friend but instead she did the same thing that you did to me. Yeah, I just knew that she's also still hooked up with her crush and let no openings for me to be her friend. Thank you.

Well, luckily I'm not a person who will crush other people's heart after my heart was badly crushed. I simply don't want other people to feel the same feeling like me, if I didn't treat them well. Although I knew some of them felt some funny feelings toward me, I still be there as a friend and I do like to be their friend..

I'll guess I hafta stay away from girls that may attract me so that I won't have any weird feelings.
Anyway, for the friends who are being ignorant to me....Thanks for the arrogant side of you.
You did teach me about the bitterness of life.
=)

P.S - To all my friends, sometimes I did feel tired of making 'the first move' in our friendship...I'll wait for you, and lets see whether you are gonna start it or not okayyy?

Last Lecture's Week

Assalamualaikum and good evening

Today is Sunday. What's so special about today? I get a full enjoyment of my weekend, rather than last week. Last week sure is a hectic one because I have to perform my group's drama, 'Nyemah Mulya' and I played the role of 'Hang Tuah', the legendary Malacca's Silat martial artist. It is not an easy task as most of the scenes, I am the props man and I joined the stage later on in the last scene. Haha

Here are some pictures in my fighting scenes, which are totally not in order
x)

Not to forget, last week I got the chance to represent my college, College Meranti in a inter-college basketball league. Alhamdulillah we won the 2nd place. We had to face the Non-Residents (NR) which form their own team, and yet they can join the inter-college competition although they lived outside the college. The problem is, many of the members of the NR teams are the representatives for lots of sports including basketball for my university, UiTM.
=..="
So it is damn hard to win the match

This week is the final week for us to be in the group. For all the laughters, joy, blood, sweat and tears will be ended within this very week. Later on we'll have the study leave for about a week and we'll start our final in no time. We'll have a long break from March to September. Only after that, we will proceed with the degree program What a long holiday for us to enjoy...=P
But now I have a mixed feelings. I do wanna end my foundation as soon as possible but I also afraid that I will the days with my friends.

They might change their course and university in September....sigh~

I also must start doing my revision but the assignments keeps my hands from holding those books, especially Grammar, which we considered as the Additional Mathematic in our course. Better start looking forward for the assignments

Gonna miss my days in Foundation In TESL UiTM Shah Alam
=')

Saying Sorry

Assalamualaikum and good evening~

"Saying sorry?
Huh !!! I don't want to ask for his/her forgiveness!!!"

Some of us might say that. Out loud, or in our heart. Maybe the song is true all along. 'Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word' by Blue and Sir Elton John. We are hardly saying sorry to the others when we are hurting them, no matter physically or mentally. Maybe there are several reasons for us, why we are hardly saying sorry to the others all this time.

First of all, it is mainly because of our ego. Yes, our pride!
We cannot tolerate with the others. We cannot lower the ego by remembering the things that the people had done to us. Or perhaps, it is our mistake, but we didn't want to admit it, simply because we are ashame of the mistake.

Next, because we keep thinking about what people had done to us and NOT REMEMBERING WHAT WE DID TO THAT PARTICULAR PEOPLE. We keep talking about the pain we feel inside but still we are not thinking of the people, because it's simply we didn't in their shoes. We are being selfish.

The last one, we had difficult times to say sorry or we hardly find some space, time and suitable condition to say sorry. There are lots of ways to convey your apology. Basically people tend to face them directly. But if you still got problems with that, in this modern age, we can give them a call, message, e-mail or whatever things that can be used as long as the message would be received. But, letters should be a useful one as it really have high sentimental value to the people, whom you want to seek for an apology.

If anyone ask for your forgiveness, then you must forgive them.
Clear up your heart, mind and soul.
I believe you that you will hate the feeling of hating people in such a long time and it's killing you deep inside, seriously.

Apologize to people and forgive people for their mistakes. These two things are closely related. You don't want to wait until the person had died to forgive him don't you?
You don't want to die and regret all those stupid mistakes that you've done while all those wrongdoings can be mended by the word 'sorry' ?

Remember...
HabluminAllah (relationship with Allah)
and
Habluminannas (relationship with humans)

Do think about it...
=)

Valentine's Day

Assalamualaikum and good morning to fellow readers~

Every year, 14th February is a date will surely remembered by everyone. Well, of course it is a lie, if I don't remember the date because, every year, I keep thinking about myself, being alone without no girlfriend besides me. HAHAHA

Now what is Valentine's Day? It is a date, of course, especially for lovers. It is a date to show our love towards our special ones, or basically confess your feelings toward the one that you love.

The date of 14th February and the meaning of it, were implanted in our mind by the westerns.

Do ask ourselves, are we MUSLIM?

Many people would say,
"Come on, every people are celebrating the date, so why shouldn't you?"
"I love you darling, today I gonna show you my love. Lets go for a date?"

Well, the thing is, when you are with your girlfriend/boyfriend, at first of course you are just staring at your love one. Your eyes will eventually meet his/her eyes. You take a deep look into those eyes. You started to feel the warmth of the love. The next thing you know, both of you and his/her are holding tight, firmly. You started to get closer to the person. face to face
suddenly your lips touched her/his tender lips.

SEE?

It is even worser when you are in a room/house where there are 'no other people in it'


But actually, there is...

"Whenever a man is alone with a woman the Devil makes a third." Hadith - Sahih Bukhari, Book 25, Number 5403, Narrated Abdullah ibn Amr

That is what happened when you are too obsessed with the idea of Valentine's Day, 14th February.You forget about Islam and your role as a Muslim.

Well, you can deny it by saying you would not go to that extend...But is your Iman is strong to protect you from all those sins???

Wait a second, what about those who are legally married?

Can they still celebrate the date of 14th February?

Please don't be a monkey,

As wise man says, 'Monkey see, monkey do', you must know few facts about the origins of the Valentine's Day:

- There was actually a priest, Valentine, who are actually active in spreading Christianity to the people in Rome. The king, Claudius II had captured him, and he was been tortured. Before the day of his sentence, which was on 14th February, he managed to gave a letter to one of the guard's daughter. At the end of the letter, it was written like this ; "From Your Valentine". Because of his deeds and love towards Christianity, the Christians decided to make 14th of February as a day to show love among men and women.

- Another fact is, the date of 14th February 1492 is the date of the loss of Spain Muslims to the Christian armies. There was one priest named Pedro St. Valentino called the day as Valentine's Day as a loving day, to celebrate their victory as they say Islam is bad and cruel towards humans.

If you are a Muslim, are you still gonna celebrate it?

think again

=)

THE SOLUTION

The best thing if you do love someone, no matter he/she loves you back or not, you can always try to perform you prayer by doing Solat, and you can ask for Allah's Mercy to strengthen the bond between you and your love one.

You can try this du'a:

If you don't have any financial constrain, and you do have the might, you can go to Jabal Rahmah in Mecca during Umrah. This is because the hill, Jabal Rahmah is the place where Prophet Adam met his wife back, Hawa after 100 years of separation. People say that you can get your soul mate here if you pray (du'a) to Allah S.W.T and Insya-Allah your du'a will answered by Him.

Basically there are three types of love

1. The love of The Creator (Allah S.W.T) towards His creations

2. The love of th creations towards their Creator

3. The love of the creations towards the other creations

Love is a feeling that can't be denied. But, it does has the limitation.

=)

Reality and Fantasy

Assalamualaikum and good night~

I don't know why, but it seems know I'm addicted to game. Like my old days~
I used to be a game maniac before I entered MRSM, a boarding school. Now the problem is, it's like I am trapping myself into the game. I play the game too often. Whether I am inside my house, or outside, it doesn't matter since I was playing the game in my reliable, trustworthy PlayStation Portable (PSP).

Actually my life's sucks a lot. I'm a sore loser in love. So I tend to play games so that I can forget about those who have ripped out my heart. Eventually now I was trapped into the game. It is a game of RPG, fighting the creatures, but the characters is in high school. So, they have their student life and relationship. As I am proceeding the game, I was attracted by the idea of having relationships in games rather than having a real life relationship because in the real life, all things are truth and logic. AND TRUTH HURTS.....A LOT !!!

The game which is in my heart right now

<3

The problem is, the game is like a drug to me...I played in during my lunch, in class (please do not try this), during functions, etc.

The girls in the game can be flirt as it will help you to built up your strength in this game. And I am really in love with two characters, Mitsuru and Yukari...=)

I am neglecting all my assignments and the surrounding as I keep on proceeding with the game.

Yukari-chan~ (she is in the same class with the character)

Mitsuru Senpai (1 year older compared to the character)

And know I was trying to search for a game, a dating sim game for PSP, in English. Basically it is a dating simulator game which allows you to talk with girls, chitchat and flirt them. Unfortunately there are games like that in PSP, but they are in Japanese

*sigh~*

Love in this real life sucks. In games, the characters or the things that we control are the one that we wish to be. Let's say that we play Tekken (a fighting game). You will throw kicks and punches to your opponents as you want to hit them hard. It is you who want to release our tension by beating them up. It is from your own desire. When you are speeding and control your car in Need For Speed, it is your own desire to drive fast, but not in the real life, in the game world!

See?

GAME REFLECTS YOUR OWN DESIRE

I keep asking myself...

If I finished playing Persona 3 Portable...

Does it mean I have to find my real love back?
The question keeps bugging me~
T_T