Just To Relieve Myself =) [Part II]

Assalamualaikum and good morning

This is the continuation from the previous post, http://rojak-terbaik.blogspot.com/2011/08/just-to-relieve-myself.html. Just to reduce the pain that I feel inside...

X...she is still thinking about her ex-boyfriend. But I learned that the boy won't come back for her for several reasons. But she never gives up and I don't want her to hurt herself. The first time I liked her when she was another boy from her university, lets call him L. When she was still with L, I am the one who listened to her problems, helping her too. At that particular time, I was pitying her for her love problems and suddenly in my heart, I said that I won't hurt her feelings anymore if I had the chance to be with her.

But when I was too busy with my life, there comes her latest ex-boyfriend that she couldn't resist until now. So lets call him N. N leave him and make her life miserable. If I'm right, she got a total of 3 boyfriends that have made her life miserable, but I only mentioning two of them out of three.

I just won't do that to her...T_T...But now I'm hurt, deeply inside. She had made an incision to my heart as I was trying my best to mend her broken heart, to wipe her tears...I just wanna make her happy...But she still wants to end our relationship.

I just wanna be her hero...To make her happy. But when she did this to me, I am in pain, in a deep pain. I know that she still loves me, miss me because I love her and miss her too. She didn't want to be honest with herself by forcing herself to end this relationship. That's the worst part. Before this I'm in love with girls too, but they didn't want to accept my love and love me back. But X is different. Totally different and that's why my feelings for her growth rapidly and it just wouldn't stop.T_T....And for girls that accidentally in love with me, I'm sorry that I just can't create any love feeling for you guys...I'm sorry...My bad...

Here I am now craving for her love as I love her so much. I want to end her suffer. I don't want her to stuck up with other guys hurt herself again...I just can't let that happen...I want her to be safe with me. But if X and N goes back together, it's alright because I know N is better than me. The problem is, N would never go back to X. I don't want her to keep sad just because of N and to be hurt in the future, with other guys. I am sincerely loving her because I want to these things from happening.

She treats me like a man. I stopped smoking from 1st of August because of her. I'm afraid that if I am too much in pain, I will light up the cigarette back. Only she can stop me from doing this....I don't want to smoke, but the pain inside my chest, it is in my heart, forcing me to smoke to put out myself from heartache...T_T...I am like standing on a cliff and if I jump, I smoke again...only she can hold my hand, pull me close to her, and embrace me...

I don't want to jump...but...

She said I'm too good for her. I feel the opposite. I am not the best for her, but I want to make her happy with all my might. I've never been loved by a girl like this before. That's why I love her so much. I'm hoping that she will accept me back into her life as I feel very lonely and I'm hurt for every second, literally.

For now...I am so sad.
T_T

I'm failing...take my hand, I'll be there for you as long you don't leave me

Not Yet...

Assalamualaikum and good morning

This post is about the person that I love, Mama. She's the one who took care of me in her house, she's my neighbor, she's my nanny basically.
But, all the love, care and attention from her, have made me and her family become close to me, until now.
You guys can go this link: http://rojak-terbaik.blogspot.com/2011/04/regret-will-never-end.html
I already wrote about the close relationship between me and them.

On the 21st of July 2011, I went to my brother's house in Subang because I was informed by Kakak Na and Kakak Rin that Mama was sick. I arrived in Shah Alam around 6 am, and later on, I went to University Malaya Medical Center (UMMC) in the evening. And after that day, I went to UMMC for almost every day until  30th of July. Except for Saturday and Sunday because I helped my brother, selling drinks to the immigrants from Bangladesh, Nepal, Philippine, Myanmar and Indonesia who came to line up at the Immigration Building in Putrajaya to sign in as legal workers.

Sometimes I went as early as 8 a.m., and sometimes I went during afternoon because I woke up late. I will go back to my brother's house around 6 p.m. until 8 p.m., depends on my mood. I had to face lousy cars, busy roads, full of jam, and not forget to mention, some stupid and uncivilized drivers who raised my blood pressure when I was riding my brother's bike. The journey took me around 30 minutes to 45 minutes, depending on the condition of the road.

I have to pass through all of these to visit Mama. I just want to show my love to her, and I want to spend my time for her remaining life. That's my intention from the beginning. Because I have to face the reality, the truth about life....and the truth hurts. Truth is always bitter. Kakak Na and Kakak Rin wouldn't tell me her real condition until I had to ask the doctor myself. They said that her team is only providing comfort and lessen her pain while she was still alive. The cancer spread to her backbone and liver. Back in 2009, the breast cancer was in level 2, she did her chemotherapy few times until she was bald. I thought it was the end. But unfortunately in early 2011, she had a backbone disease that makes her can't move around. She only can lie down on her bed.

14th of July is the date when she was admitted into the hospital. At first she was fine because she still can talk and made some jokes. Later on the doctor gave her such a massive amount of Morphine and she was sleeping all day long. It's like she was unconscious and only opened up her eyes sometimes. When I came, her face was already yellow, this is due to the cancer cells which have spread to her liver, and also backbone. It was at the level 4 for God sake.

I took care of her. Gave her drinks when she needs it. Holding her cold hands and fingers. I managed to kiss her cheek although she was sleeping at that very moment. My tears were covering my eyes as her tears were rolling down her cheeks. I didn't want her to be tortured like that. Her pain is almost unbearable. I can see it through her eyes, listening from the words coming from her mouth. Painkillers were given in a right dose as the doctors don't want her to be too relaxed, she will sleep all day long or if the dose is less, she will be in pain.

When she had already completed her antibiotic, the doctor said that she can be taken to home because only painkillers will be provided until the rest of her remaining life. It was also the time where Kakak Rin and Kakak Na have to make a right decision and at the same time , she doesn't open her eyes. She sleeps all the day. She doesn't want to eat and drink anything. On the third day she was acting like that, that was the day she closed her eyes forever. 30th of July 2011 at the age of 55.

Sad face is all I can give

I rushed to Sungai Buloh that afternoon, to her house. Her body will arrive around 5 p.m. and I arrived at 3.40 p.m. I saw many of her relatives that I knew before, and some that I didn't recognize. I also met some  of my old neighbors from Quarters of Agriculture Department in Serdang. I smoked. I didn't eat a thing since morning. Mama's nephew, Nazmi bought me an orange juice. Her body arrived, I only can look from outside of the house, there were too many people. After she got bathed (Muslim's body must be bathed before buried), I was unable to carry her body into the van, which will later on bring her to the nearest Mosque to get prayed. I went there by car and I when we arrived, they already finished praying for her and headed to the graveyard. There, I saw many people burst into tears. But I just don't know why I can't help myself, crying for her.

That night, I went back to my brother's house...I still didn't cry until now. I don't know why... But it  makes me uneasy as it makes me feel I'm not a normal person. But when I think about it deeply, I know that I had already given her my best, by accompanying her through her remaining life. Many people that met me when she was sick and the day she died told me that my name was always coming out of her mouth before she was sick. She loves me, and I love her too. I want her to be with us, throughout my life, but I can't stand looking her condition like that. The pain was so unbearable that I was thinking that I am letting her to go to meet Allah, because Allah loves her more than I do.

Until now...I didn't cry yet. Not yet.

Mysterious Heroes Are Always Cool

Assalamualaikum and good evening.

Yeah! Suddenly I got the guts to carry on my responsibilities to post new entries in this blog! >.<
lolz
Okay, stop playing around. =)

Kamen Rider or Masked Rider is one of my favorite masked heroes. Because they're mysterious in a way and it is cool!!!

xD

The title says it all. Mysterious heroes are always cool. Seriously. Heroes are everywhere. They are all around you actually. It is you who don't discover them yet. Eventhough they can't fly, they can't lift heavy objects easily, that doesn't mean that they cannot be our heroes. Heroes are not just in comic books. People around you can be your heroes when you respect them more than other people.

The story starts when I went for for Taraweeh prayer, last week I guess. Taraweeh prayer is a special prayer for Muslims in Ramadan month. After we finished Isha' (night) prayer, we stop for a while, to hear for a talk from the committee members of the mosque. He talked a lot, but this one attracts me from sleeping while sitting, waiting for the Taraweeh prayer.

"There's a slave of Allah who comes infront, in the first row for almost every Taraweeh prayer. He's a good man, a man who have a strong heart and soul. Because he used to be a normal person, just like us. Starts his motorcycle with right leg and parked it with his left leg. But Allah tested him. He was given a disease (diabetes) an he had to cut off one of his legs. He's heart is strong, indeed, because I still seeing him coming everyday for Taraweeh prayer (front row), in Subuh (dawn) prayer, sometimes for Zuhr (afternoon) prayer and Asr (evening) prayer because maybe during that time, he was bit busy. He is still coming to Mosque although he had to face that kind of condition. Can you guys imagine if you become like him, with one leg and the other one is a prosthetic leg, would you guys come to Mosque like he did? He was born to strive in Islam's pathway, a pathway that pleased and blessed by Allah. I'll not mention his name as we must make his test as our reminder, not by idolizing him. May Allah bless all his strives all this while."

I was like...raised my head up when I heard about this. Suddenly I realized that this man is actually my friend's father and his younger brother is sitting at the back row. He already put prosthetic leg on and it costs him thousands of Malaysian Ringgit. But he used it well, to submit himself to Allah.

I asked myself. Me as a normal human being, always give reasons why I'm so lazy to go to the Mosque. While he already lost his leg, coming for Mosque, craving for deeds that are promised by Allah. It is my laziness inside that stunted my intention to go there. If I'm not lazy, with Allah's will, I will go there for every prayer. When it comes to cinemas, karaoke, and other places, there's no word such as 'lazy' popped out from my mind. This is bad. =(

Salaat in congregation will offers us 27x more rewards rather than usual. Besides, Prophet Muhammad P.B.U.H in his life always encourage Muslims to pray in congregation, which can easily attained by going to the Mosque. Besides, I always believe that true Muslim men will come to the Mosque to perform their prayer. How I wish to become a true Muslim man one day...=)

I already put him as my role model in life. And the best part is, I know who he is...=P

So, in this blessed month, Ramadan, let us keep coming to the Mosque to perform prayers.
This is also a reminder to myself.

Don't be a slave for Ramadan by doing good deeds only for this time around,
but be a slave of Allah by doing good deeds in this Ramadan and for the rest of our life.
=D

Just To Relieve Myself =)

Assalamualaikum and good morning

I don't know why I'm doing this entry. Hahaha. For all the dear readers, sorry that I didn't make new posts for such a long time. There's a lot to tell to you guys, if you like to. But hey, give me sometime to crack up my brain. Somehow I am lost and I don't know how to start! xD

Recently, I was busy because I was fall in love again. I don't know why.

But somehow I chatted with her and we became closer than before. But I knew she can't forget her ex boyfriend. It's fine with me, because I realized that I must bare the consequences if I get closer to her. I don't know what to say but it seems that I love her so much. Another girl that I've been waiting for almost 4 years was vanished from my thought. Can you imagine, a girl that that I have been waiting from 15 years old until this year was out of my head.

To prevent things from become complicated, lets give the girl that I'm in love is, X. Before I told my mum about X, she was worried about my education since X always called and text me through my cell phone. She was worried that I couldn't focus on my studies. I was so daft at that time to tell X about this and later on, she told her mother that my my mother was worried. Got it? Later on that morning, I told my mother about X and she understands. If I can study hard and prove it to my mum by having good results in degree, that's fine. I told her I will manage my time wisely. Surprisingly, she is interested with X.

On the other hand, X's mother wants us to be friends because she's afraid that X will be blamed if I got bad results. X is so obedient to her mother because I told her to explain to her mum but she refuses. The relationship was getting worse when she still remember about the girl that I've waited before. She was accusing me and it hurts me a lot. Although I was accused, I don't ask her about her ex boyfriend because I know she just can't get over him yet.

I love her
I love her every second
I love her more everyday
I love her more than I can say
I love her so much
oh my God.....
I love her too much

I told her that I won't leave her. I have the responsibility for my own promises. I won't leave her like her previous boyfriends. But it turned out to be she's the one who want's to leave me. She said that she wants us to be friends. I'm just afraid that I will lost her love after this and she will find another guy. My heart is not a toy to play with. Once I'm in love, deeply, I tried so heard that my chest will be in pain until she truly doesn't have any feelings for me. One more thing, our friend, a boy is always disturb her. I already told X that I want to tell to the boy that she's mine, but she is just too kind, didn't want to hurt his heart.

My mom knows about us, her parents know about us. I already challenged myself to have good results so that I will get the chance to study abroad, along with her. Besides, with her motivation, I managed to stop smoking since the first of Ramadhan. There's a lot of things that she managed to make me change, and I don't want all the changes go to waste if I'm too sad with this relationship. I hope she really thinks properly of every actions that she's doing for our relationship. I really serious about this. All of these are not only promises, but I will prove it. As long as she's still loves me. If she loves another guy, then I have to give up for this relationship.

I hope she can accept me back although I am not as handsome as the other guys. I am a bad guy. I do have lots of problems in my life. There are so many defects within me. But, I love her with all my heart. I miss her so deeply when she's not around me. She's the one who understands me and want to hear all my abstruse problems.

Only Allah knows my feelings for her
=')

And yes, thanks for my dear Ps3 which comforts me whenever I stressed
>.<

The Preparations To Become a Good Father

Assalamualaikum and good evening~

This entry is dedicated for the Father's Day. Well, I'm not telling you guys more about my 'fathers' for now, but deep inside, I am still appreciating them. In this entry, I will share to you guys about some preparations that I must do before I am entitled as a father, one day, Insya-Allah.

1. Prayer (Salat)

Since the prayer is the basic thing in Islam, I must do it all, five times a day. But, unfortunately I performed  the prayer a bit late than I should and it is not good, indeed. It's like I'm putting other things first rather than my responsibilities towards Allah by performing my prayer according to the time. I must remind myself, that my life would end anytime right now, by any forms of death that may invites me in a sudden, so I need to perform my prayer first before continuing my life. Allah gives us 24 hours a day, why we cannot let our heart, having a submission towards Allah? Each prayer may took around 10 minutes. We as Muslims, need to pray at least five times a day, which means a total of 50 minutes out of 1440 minutes (24 hours x 60 minutes) must be spend to maintain a good slave-creator relationship. We always believe when we eat we will feel relieved from any hunger, we always believe that when we can have a safe journey if we drive carefully. BUT WE ARE WRONG. It is Allah who gives the the fills our empty stomach. Some people eat in small amount but they are already full, some people have to eat a lot to fill their stomach. IT IS THE POWER OF ALLAH. The same goes when people driving the car in such a careful manner, if they didn't hit the other cars, the other cars can hit them with the power of Allah.

"His Command, when He intends anything, is only that He says to it, "Be' then (and there) it is - (Kun Fayakun)" - Verse 82.


Besides than performing prayer early, performing the prayer in congregation is far more better as we will get 27x more rewards than praying alone at home.

2. Give up in smoke

Well, this is hard I think...I already tried to give up in smoke for few times, but sadly, I failed. When I was in school, I was not too addicted with cigarettes, until I finished my high school and I went for the foundation, I accidentally become addicted. Last time, in Malaysia the price for Winston Light 20's is RM7.80 but the price was raised up to RM8.50. I spent one pack for a week. I put myself a limit to smoke, 4 cigarettes per day, so  one pack can lasts around 5 days. For Saturdays and Sundays, I usually went to my brother's house, so I always kept asking him for cigarettes. After finishing the foundation, I went to Langkawi Island and bought a carton of cigarette, Winston Filter which costs me RM47. The price was dirt cheap. One packet is only around RM4.70. So when I work, I smoke for every hour and when it comes to 28th of May, the day that I want to stop smoking, I can feel a pain at my chest because I stopped tremendously. I took my sister-in-law's advice to stop smoking slowly, and not in such a hurry. Now I only smoke around 3-5 cigarettes per day, with the help of my supervisor. He's the one who supports me with the cigarettes.

In order to become a good father is to stop smoking. Why? Simply because I don't my children to get any disease because of me. And I don't them to follow my bad habits. That's all. I don't want to waste my money and my precious life because of cigarettes too. But if I managed to give up in smoking, I give myself a limit to smoke only with my old friends who are really hard. Because, although you guys may not be a smoker, but you guys must understand how people like me.

We smoke when we:
- Feel tensed
- Bored
- After eating
- Feel cold
- In toilet (you get what I mean)
- Hangout with friends

And I smoke ONLY when meet my old friends if I managed to give up on smoking. That means maybe I smoked only a cigarette for a month. Who knows?

3. Save some money for the future

Now my money is still stuck RM9k in the bank...I wish I can add RM2k more before 2012.
If I can discipline myself to save up to RM5k for each two semesters in degree (one year), after my degree, I will have around RM30k. RM5k x 4 years plus RM9k, hopefully I can reach around RM30k or more...
When I save my money in banks such as Bank Rakyat, Bank Persatuan and ASB, the dividend will be from 7%-15%, depends on the bank.
This will help me to kick-start my life as a teacher, insya-Allah....=)

If I get the chance to continue my studies in UiTM, I will try to apply for the MARA education loan, which will help me a lot rather than PTPTN loan which costs me a lot.
The difference between MARA education loan and PTPTN :

MARA:
- Passed the required CGPA, loans will turned into scholarship
- Have to pay back according to the CGPA. If you didn't reach the required CGPA, you will have to pay according to their system. e.g. pay 5% out of the total amount when you get more than 3.5, pay 10% if you get 3 and above, pay 15% if you get 2.5 and above, etc

PTPTN:
- Passed the reauired CGPA, loans will turned into scholarship
-If you didn't meet the required CGPA, you'll have to pay all the amount that you loaned plus some interests

*Please correct me if I'm wrong about these okay?
But both of the loans will ask you to pay monthly, and not to pay all the money you borrowed at once.

Money cannot give us, the humans the happiness that we need, but they may contribute us to search for the happiness and tranquility. But do remember, money is not everything. I need money to raise my children, buying diapers, food, and many more. Although I need money for all these, it is love and attention that matters. Poor people may live happily rather than rich people because they were provided with enough love and attention from their family. Am I right? =)

4. Cursing other people

Cursing is also my bad habit, and yes, it is hard to resist. The first reason why I'm cursing people is I cannot control my anger towards other people. Next, when I cannot control myself, vulgar words that I've been used before slipped through my mouth. The words are very offensive. Sometimes the words not only offended the target persons, but also their mothers and fathers. And sorry, it is out of my control if I'm cursing people to that extend. But cursing also used for jokes, when you hangout with your friends, cursing each other seems to be a tradition.

This cursing habit is not good to be shown to my children. It'll shows my disability to control my patience, my immaturity, and accidentally I set a bad example of vulgar words to them too. So in order for me to achieve my dream, a good father, I must control myself from cursing starting from now.

I think that's all for now, I know there's a lot of defect in me. But these four thing really can inflict my role as a good father, to raise my children properly so that they can become good people.

P.S - Suddenly I felt that I want to get married earlier than I thought before. >.<
Wanna be a good father as soon as possible, but unfortunately I don't have any candidate to be my future my wife for now.
Sorry for the post before,
about W, in the She Who Has The Magic And Cursed Me With Her Charm...
She didn't like me from the very beginning, and I already turned a new leaf.
For now, I'm proud to be an eligible bachelor.
xD

Escaped From a Crocodile's Bite, But Accidentally Entered Tiger's Mouth

Assalamualaikum and good evening

First of all, I must keep reminding myself, I must accept the written fate of my life.

“Allah does not burden a soul with more than it can bear.”(Quran 2: 286)


"Do men think that they will be left alone on saying 'We believe', and that they will not be tested? We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true 
from those who are false."(Quran 29:2-3)


Okay, I think with these verses, words of Allah, taken from the holy al-Quran will help me to calm down and relax.

I already have a new job. Perda, Pulau Pinang is the place where me and my friend, Badri Shaharudin went for an interview with a company. We found the job in a local newspaper and quickly called the person in the advertisement. When we arrived, we were interviewed by the clerk, a young beautiful woman who soothed our heart at that moment. We choose the position that we want, 'CUSTOMER SERVICE' as we want to evade any works that require us to get sales. Although the salary is rm500 per month, we can get extra income for every water filter that we service. Yes, it is a water treatment/filter company. Plus, the work is only within office hours, that is, 9 a.m. to 5 p.m.

We went for training for few days, knowing the product itself and the history of the company. We came early to the office and we cannot stop ourselves from becoming too excited to start the job. On 6th of June we came to the office like usual but there was no one there. Then we got a call from our boss. We were asked to go for an outstation for a week, only. Allowance will be provided, she said. So, we head back to Kulim, to pack our belongings, and wait for them to fetch us. We waited at home from the afternoon until night for them. At 10 p.m., they came. On our journey to Slim River we had a chat, all five of us. Badri, another boy who is the same age with us, a male supervisor, and his wife. Surprisingly, our job is not 'customer service' but DIRECT SELLING AGENT instead.

So here we are, trapped with problems...in Tanjung Malim, not Slim River. WITH NO ALLOWANCE !!!
Only advance money are available. With the basic of RM500...If I keep asking for advance, how much my salary will be later on?I have to pay for hotel about RM11 per day, and this outstation last for around 11 days, which means RM110, and I eat average of RM10 per day. The best part is, in my account there's RM3 left, as I already withdraw RM90 from it.I only got one sale for now, selling one unit of water filter and I get RM20 only
RM20 !!!
this coming Friday, 24th of June 2011 I'll go back to Kulim and on 20th of June I'll have to go for an outstation again until 30th of June, where advance money is on the line.


Let me show some calculation:

RM500 (basic) + RM20 (commission) = RM520
Hotel for this out station (10 days) = RM110
Advance (not sure) = RM50
Next outsation = RM110 + RM 110 (hotel and food for 10 days)

RM520 - RM110 - RM50 - RM220 = RM140

SERIOUSLY I NEED MORE SALES....if I quit I won't get any money...
I DON'T LIKE this selling thingy AT ALL
I need to pay RM600 for my PS3 and RM600 for my mom
And I don't know if I have the money
My wifi bill also need to be payed this month

I HAVE BEEN CHEATED BY MY BOSS...AND THE WORKERS THERE...I DID ASKED MY BOSS ABOUT THIS JOB, AND SHE SAID THERE WILL BE NO SALES, JUST SERVICE THE  CUSTOMERS' WATER FILTER AND WILL BE GIVEN ALLOWANCE...NOT TO FORGET THE WORKERS THERE, WHO COVERED THE BOSS' EVIL ACT

I really wish this nightmare will end soon...I can't wait to go to July, where I'll quit this freaking job.
Wonder if I can go to the Labour Department Peninsular Malaysia to complaint about my case...

I don't like to knock people's door to promote this water filter although this product has the quality to win my heart...I had to bring the filter all along the apartment, quarters, low cost house, under the raging sun blaze. THIS SUCKS A LOT !!!

You're the best boss I ever known !!! Okay, I'm lying...

I want to cry but it's too late to do that..I have to face it anyway..T_T
I miss my parents, family, friends
home, guitar, my pillow, motorcycle

I MISS KULIM

MEdSI

Assalamualaikum and good morning

This entry would be a little informative rather than previous entries I think. And it is better for me to share with you guys before my stared to lose the information that you guys may need. I hope that you guys already know what MEdSI stands for. If not, here we go:

M  : Malaysian
Ed : Education
S   : Selection
I    : Inventory

So, it is a selection process for students from Matriculation College, STPM students, Foundation leavers and Diploma holders to enter degree in education, whether it is TESL (Teaching English as Secondary Language) like me, mathematics, science, sport, language and many more.

The first task would be the written test. It is a test to evaluate the attitude of the future teachers, and to select some candidates to the next stage, which is the interview. When you check through the official web page of Malaysian Ministry Of Higher Education (MOHE), and you are selected for the interview, that means you passed the written test and you must get ready for the interview. There are also few things you need to check to face the interview:

1. Hairstyle
2. Dressing code
3. General knowledge regarding Malaysian education, current and few big things in the past
4. Few big names in MOHE, Ministry of Education (MOE) and the government itself
5. Teaching demonstration (you'll need to study)
6. Documents that are related to the interview

Okay now, let's go straight to the main point...now I will try to memorize back my conversation with the interviewers.

Me : Zulfahmi Mohamed
Interviewer 1 : Malay man
Interviewer 2 : Chinese man
Interviewer 3 : Malay woman

Me  : (Knocked the door)...Assalamualaikum and good morning...(give my file, full of certificates to the interviewers)

IV 3 : We'll have to test your eyes first to detect your colour blindness

Me  : ...(Gave the answers)

IV 2 : You may sit

Me  : Thank you

IV 1 : Now Zulfahmi, can you please introduce yourself

Me  : My name is Zulfahmi...

IV 1 : Can you speak louder?

Me  : My name is Zulfahmi Bin Mohamed. I was born in Bukit Mertajam 'at' (damn, I was so nervous at that time) 22nd of July 1992. Before this I lived in Serdang, Selangor and then I moved to Kulim, Kedah.

IV 1 : How about your co-curriculum or your contribution for your schools as a student?

Me  : I represented my school for rugby competition in Northern Zone. I also participated in Silat, which is in sparring competition. I also became a commander in the scout troop in national Jamboree. Last but not least, I also act in a drama team.

IV 1 : Can you please tell me, why do you like to be a teacher?

Me : I would like to be a teacher because I believe that I can understand the students better. I don't want to punish them, but I want to understand them and hear their problems...I want the students to believe that English is not as hard as they think.

IV 2 : You know that the government send new teachers in Sabah and Sarawak. Would you like to go there if they ask you to do so?

Me  : Since the government announced that teachers who were sent to Sabah and Sarawak will get allowance, so I think I will go there.

IV 2 : Lets say that they will not give any allowance. Would you still going there?

Me  : (Laughed and smiled).....I'm still going there because it is my duty.

IV 1 : Would you like to demonstrate your teaching method to us?

Me  : Sure! (started to use the marker pen and whiteboard)

IV 1 : Nowadays, many of the students cannot speak in English. Can you tell us why?

Me  : I believe that they're lack of self esteem in using English as daily conversation. Besides, they don't use English frequently and some of them even talk with their teachers in Bahasa Malaysia.

IV 1 : In order to increase the standard of English for students, what would you like to do? Since the students in rural areas cannot master English that well.

Me  : I will teach them English, not only in formal way, but informal too. Such as listening to music, watching films, and many more.

IV 1 : I think that's all, thank you.

Me  : (Took back the file from the third interviewer and shake hands with the male interviews)


Now this is the best part when I shook my hand with them....>.<

IV 1 : Zulfahmi, you're the best !
Me   : (Blushing)...thanks

I think that's all, and please pray for me so that I can get TESL for my degree. The result should be at the end of July. Can't wait....>.<
If I get TESL for my degree, that means I've passed the interview...=)

P.S : I'm not sure whether it is applicable only in my place for interview or not, but it seems like the 3rd interviewer only checked the file for certificates AND the written conversation is not the exact words and sentence structures that I used because I cannot remember well. But, the points are still there.

I still want to be a teacher, so what's your problem?